too much
I find that I have gone
from
nothing
to
too much
in a bear instant
or should that be
a man instant?
who knows
if I am a man
(I don't think I can ever be
a bear
I've never will be large
nor hairy
or even leather)
but by
starting stuttering
to become
honestly
unshielded
unpretending
unfiltered
I was alone
cowering within walls I built
asking for all I knew I wanted
which was nothing
no thing
at all
unused to want
being permitted
being possible
now I begin to know
and find
that even wanting
without expectation
can blind and batter
and bruise
and be
too much
perhaps I should
be huddling still
forget I could
know me
at least then
I would
do
no harm
by my wanting
anything
3rd July 2026
