unsaid

So many things

unsaid

unasked for

unadmitted

caught in that perfect confluence

unvalued rejected denied

Paralysis in fear of conflict

(why do I feel need to ask, ask permission?)

frightened should I go

I'll not be welcome

(against all past experience)

So I am going to go visit

and when I arrive I will be asked in

and I will ask

may we hold each other

after this age of isolation

for a little while

so many years wishing imagining silent

hold me now

hold we slow quiet long

passion can wait

gentle meeting of flesh kissing flesh

companionship with you will always

always come first

13th April 2020 #pendemic five